Deliverance

This is the most difficult thing I think I will ever have to write. I have so many things to say, but now that I'm writing this, I feel that it's inevitable. Being stalked takes such an emotional toll; nothing can prepare you for all the different feelings that a person can go through. At times it becomes so overwhelming, I never thought someone could actually be someone else and get away with it. The emotional impact has imprinted itself in my brain and I know that is something I will carry around for the rest of my life. The worst scars are the one's we can't see. I carry these scars with me everyday. Some days are good, while others are bad. I am no longer as trusting as I used to be. I cannot stress enough how much emotional and psychological damage Ms Anderson has done not only to myself, but my family as well. I had never in my life encountered anyone who claimed they hated and despised me, that they wished me harm or even worse, death. Being accused in a court of law were meant to degrade me. Ms Anderson has claimed that I am the stalker and she is the victim. I was her "scapegoat" and many times would be on the receiving end of her rage. I had such anger and confusion because there was absolutely NO reason for her to act this way, I barely knew her and still do not know her.

I have come to terms with the fact why Ms Anderson despises me so much, and why she has stalked me both online and offline. Stalking cases are based on legal laws of how its system works. Stalkers are men AND women: women can stalk men, men can stalk women, and in my case, a woman has stalked me. 

In 2014 the harassment from Ms Anderson became so intense that I had major panic attacks and mental injury assaults that are life threatening. I had to take medications that I have bad reactions too just to live a day to day life with the constant inflictions. It was a living nightmare. 

Seeing doctors cannot help, if the actual problem is still at large. It did not take away the harassment, defamation, and at times feelings of fear. I felt like I wasn't being heard in the areas of life that I needed to be heard. Which was the law itself. 

In 2014, when her harassment on Facebook became consistent, she deactivated her profile and made a new one to derail law enforcement of her involvement from the beginning. After the damage was done, her "Facebook" wouldn't have that certain evidence. This process just delayed the justice, it didn't actually stop it nor did it obtain its content of confusion. 

There is always a silver lining and some good things came out of this: I have become educated by my experience and have been able to advocate and help others in similar situations. I am thankful that finally I have a voice and that there is some justice for the decade of the stalking harassment. I strongly believe that Ms Anderson needs some type of mental help and I do hope that she gets it and will go on to lead a good quality of life. 

Ms. Anderson had requested to the court that I'm banned from ever speaking about this and that she also changed her mind about my sentencing at the hearing that I should not be in jail for the accused crimes. They were both contradictory after the initial investigation where I got all my information from. The tolls of having being convicted for crimes I did not create nor participate in have been inferiorating. This is the hardest part to live through. 

The after math has been just as exhausting as the path of unfulfilled justice. Going through this ordeal has put a constant battle of simple life structures. I find ways to humorize it to live with it. Somedays I cannot breathe and a friend will tell me to just breathe. This isn't anything I wanted to or chose to go through. It's a crafted piece by someone who created its infliction. By intention. 

What I can do with this headache is keep on righting the wrongs daily until I'm somewhat healed or some actual truth enlightens a population of rednecks or Jesus comes and says he's not real and we're only living to believe in someone better than ourselves because humanity isn't at all righteous as this situation has proved. 

I have no words of wisdom, only sharing a life experience. I really don't know how the law twisted the facts and here I am but I keep hoping that someday a Jesus proves himself real, no matter how its done.